Have you heard the song ‘dear younger me’ by Mercyme? If you haven’t go check it out. I love the idea behind the song. It got me thinking about what I would tell my younger self and I thought I would share it with you all. If you haven’t been here before, then you can read this and learn a little more about my story.
Dear younger me,
I know how you feel. I’ve been there. I remember it so clearly. Every feeling. Every emotion. I remember it all. You’re scared. You’re ashamed. You’re confused. You’re mad. Everything is changing and you don’t know what to do. Take hope, things get better. The Lord loves and cares for you so deeply. If you believe in nothing else, believe that.
It won’t be easy. Everything in your life will completely change. Being pregnant in high school will be hard. You’ll suddenly be very different from everyone around you. Your friends will go to football games and parties, and you’ll be planning out what do with your future. They’ll dance the night away at homecoming, and you’ll go home crying because you don’t know how to deal with it all. Your friends will apply to their dream colleges, and you’ll be deciding on a crib for a baby registry. Your friends will go shopping for prom dresses, and you’ll be trying on your wedding dress.
You’ll doubt God’s love for you, but try not to. He loves you and he’ll show you that time and time again. But you won’t feel worthy. You’ll feel the need to hide from Him. You won’t think there’s redemption for you. At times, all hope will be lost. You’ll believe that you’re on your own, no grace in sight. But you’re wrong.
You’ll grow up much faster than your friends which will put a strain on your relationships. At times you’ll feel all alone. Your husband will become your best, and really only, friend. Your daughter will consume your whole life. You’ll have to depend on the Lord for friendship for a while, and realize that He is more than enough. But don’t worry, He will bring you incredible mommy friends who will fill your life with wonderful fellowship.
You’ll be judged because of your age. You’ll lie about when you graduated so that people will think you’re older. You’ll feel like you have to hide away in shame. You don’t. You’ll be a good mom who works hard to make sure her baby is happy and healthy. You’ll over come your fears and gain confidence in who you are as a mother and wife.
Through all the trials and heartache, you’ll end up with a life more incredible than you could have ever imagined. God will bless you with the most beautiful baby girl in the entire world and a husband who is more than you could have ever dreamed. Some days will go by slowly, but the months fly by. Your baby will become a big sister and your family will grow in number, in love, and in laughter. Your life will be nothing like you imagined it would be and harder than you might have wanted. It will also be filled with more love, light, laughter, joy, and hope than you ever realized before. God is so faithful, so start thanking Him now.
*This is a letter to my younger self. Obviously this won’t reflect everyone’s younger self. I just want you to know that whatever you’re going through, there is hope. The Lord is so faithful and gracious.*
“The grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of the Lord stands forever.” Isaiah 40:8